you stole the spare key to my house

sneaked in like a mouse

turned my life upside down

painted my navy blue walls beige

too bright a color for my eyes

you used to proclaim wishes

as I washed the dishes

never minding if I was tired

or felt uninspired.

all night, for you

it always felt right

talking and weeping

even when I was desperate for sleeping

my bad,

it always made me madly sad

that I just couldn’t do the same

no matter how much I was insane,

how much pain

I was feelin’

I could never give in

to wake you

to make you

aware, to care.

but you know,

loving me is so rare,

that I used to stare

at your blissful face

trying to pace

myself

into understanding 

into pretending

independency 

can fit

some kind of intimacy.

but I never found a way

to let you stay.

now,

rotting inside this cage

full of bitterness and rage

it struck me

nobody will survive

without getting fucked

all the way

any kind of Einstein

must revive

and replay.