you have lived so many years
and yet, you have learnt nothing.
where are your limits?
do you pick your fights carefully?
do you spend your energy on something meaningful?
or do you keep rolling around and around
waiting for the day it will go away?

you are wasting your time,
because I tell you,
it will not go away on it’s own.
work on your shit.

“you smile way too much,
for someone claiming to be so hurt.”,
I’ve heard.

honey,
you should know my needs.
I need to laugh the pain away,
fuck the darkness away.
sadness will not eat me up.
there’s always black,
but also white.
there’s always light.

my mind will always keep
looking out
for something
to warm me up
and make me smile.
always.

that’s called resilience, baby.